[He's giving off the air and illusion of casualness, but knocking on someone's door in the middle of the night is never a sign of calm. Not lately.]
[Especially after the hint of a nightmare. He meets Hiro's gaze firmly, but he doesn't look put our or annoyed - still just concerned, before he offers a nod.]
Wanna go outside? The air might be good for you. [It's almost standard by now, the way they just sort of meet up in the middle of the night. For himself, Bellamy has found it easier to get out of the house sometimes, whether they decide to just sit on the porch or climb up on the roof, just having the sky above him gives him a sense of calm when the walls feel too tight.]
[Sometimes it's still a struggle and a little awkward for Hiro to actually trust Bellamy with these things out of a little questioning of whether he's bothering the older man or not, but he's getting better. Being outside does wonders for calming his nerves and this is almost routine by now even if he hasn't quite come out to tell Bellamy everything that keeps him up. He crouches down for a moment to release Bellona so the kitten can return to Bellamy's room before he nods, glancing back out into the dark interior of the house.
Outside, at least, might be a little less intimidating, too.]
...roof? [Even the porch is a bit too stifling today. Bellamy may have noticed a pattern in Hiro that when his night terrors are on the more severe side, he opts for open space.] I can meet you up there.
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[It's easier to talk with Hiro so candidly when he stops thinking about it, when he just lets it roll between them, rather than analyzing how they communicate, or wondering why Hiro started trusting him so much. Bellamy knows how to gain favor and loyalty purposely, but it still surprises him when it happens unintentionally.]
Gimme two minutes. [That's a yes, on the roof. He shuts the door behind him and heads for the kitchen first, grabbing a canteen full of water and scooping up Bellona in the other hand. The kitten protests only briefly, but it's hardly the first time he's taken the animal up there with him, and he figures Hiro would probably appreciate more cat-time. He has seen the cuddles.]
[He could teleport, but even with his hands full, he'd rather climb up and exert himself, make it easier to fall asleep later. So he shoves kitten and canteen into one arm and makes his way up onto the roof, relishing in how much better the fresh air feels already.]
[That period of time is enough for Hiro to step outside onto the porch, slipping into shadows to teleport himself up to the roof. He should have followed Bellamy's advice and climbed to tire himself out, but this was faster. Besides, shadow traveling was still cool.
By the time Bellamy appears over the edge of the roof he crawls forward, first taking the canteen and then trying to take Bellona from his hands so Bellamy can haul himself up the rest of the way. He just doesn't bother giving the kitten back, cradling her to his chest while leaning back and propping himself up with an elbow. Bellamy was right. The cat-time is appreciated. There's quiet for a moment as they get situated before Hiro turns his head to ask Bellamy a question.]
Did you go out tonight, or did you stay home? [He's known Bellamy to wander out at night a few times, but he generally doesn't ask where he goes.]
[He's grateful for the free hands, even if he knows he could have done it otherwise. He's also glad he decided to bring the cat, because the way Hiro instantly cuddles it is A Sign.]
[Bellamy settles down on the roof with a small sigh, taking back the canteen so he can take a sip before he replies.] Yeah. Just - around town though.
[He doesn't offer much more than that, but he's spent a lot of time at the La Llorona outpost lately too that he doesn't mind giving Hiro something more about where he's been. He knows Hiro has been worrying about it lately with everyone.]
For the record - next time you knock, if I'm not here, just call me.
[He doesn't really need to offer more seeing how Hiro's more focused on prodding his finger under Bellona's chin and booping her on the nose, half-focused on her and half on Bellamy. Just around town means he's gone places he's been before and that settles him a bit more. So he only nods in response.]
Yeah...I was gonna do that if you didn't answer. [Maybe. If he didn't psyche himself out first. He doesn't say anything for a minute, stomach tied in knots as he stares up at the sky and continues, now playing with the cat's paws.]
...let me ask you something. What do you do when your dreams start bleeding into reality and you don't know how to separate them very well?
[He sets the canteen down between them, a sign that Hiro's more than welcome to it too. He doesn't answer the question right away though, mostly because he doesn't have a concrete answer to that anymore. He takes the sleeping draught, but it's not really enough, exhibited by his disastrous month of poor sleep. He's kind of just expecting he'll need to get used to this exhaustion as the new normal.]
[But it's telling that he asks, and Bellamy knows right away that Hiro's struggling too, more than he'd realized before.] Try and find something that I know is reality. Focus myself on the things I know are real. [A beat.] Even if it means busting up my hands sometimes.
[At least he stopped feeling bad for the trees he's been taking his aggression out on. But fighting has come easy to him for so long that it just feels natural to use it to his own benefit even when he doesn't have a sentient opponent.]
[He eyes the canteen but there's a subtle shake of his head. Not right now. Not while he's still fighting himself out of whatever dream he's just had. He's awake. He's awake and he's physically here, but there's a part of him caught up in his nightmare still. His focus on Bellamy and the kitten appear to be what he's choosing to believe is real.
Focusing on Bellamy being alive and his head not spontaneously combusting due to his shard erroring out. Focusing on the still-warm night air. Focusing on the soft fur under Bellona's chin. It's not a bad strategy.]
But what if even then you can't fight it? [He doesn't want to sound defeated. It's the last thing he wants with Bellamy, but he knows it's harder to keep the tone out of his voice.] What if you know for a fact that the dreams are going to become a reality really, really soon? That's where I'm stuck.
[He doesn't have an answer to that, either. What if you can't fight it? What then? He's been there - but at the same time he hasn't, because watching Hiro now and thinking about how he's been for the last month or so leaves Bellamy with the realization that it's far more than just basic nightmares.]
[So, he doesn't answer, not right away. Instead he ducks his head, putting himself on a closer level to the kid, and his face is full of both understanding and concern.]
What dreams, Hiro? What's going on? [The question could be taken to mean just right now, in this moment, but Bellamy means it to expand into - everything. The entirety of why he's had a chronic case of insomnia through this moment.]
[He doesn't shy away the minute Bellamy draws in closer and instead he finally allows himself to really look into the older guy's face, face pinched a bit and teeth gnashing at his lower lip in thought. There are a lot of things he could tell Bellamy right now, but he knows he needs to take one step at a time.
The important thing should be first.]
...remember how I went with Loki right after you and I got back from Parrais? Loki and I did a little breaking and entering right after that, right into Troichean Beinn. And we were hoping that we'd find some answers about the shards but we found something way worse instead. [He shakes his head.] Bellamy? It's happening. The second vision...it's coming true.
[He knows Bellamy will understand what he means. The second vision, the one of fire and mechanical beasts and everything Bellamy had told him about.] I don't know how long we have, a few weeks maybe? Maybe another month or two, but those things are going to be leaving the mountain soon and coming after us.
[He seems mostly unfazed by any breaking and entering, even sort of knew Hiro was going to look into the dwarves further, just not to that extent.]
[But when he drops the fact that the vision is real, Bellamy's expression drops too. On some level, he isn't surprised. The Godswar dreams all came true too, hadn't they? It makes sense that the machines would, especially after he'd gotten it for a second time.]
Shit. [To put it mildly. He runs a hand through his hair and wishes he had more of Waver's whiskey.] I kinda suspected it'd be coming, even if I hoped - [Hope is weird. Right now it feels a little useless. He knows he's a realist, and that tends towards cynicism, but sometimes he liked to imagine things wouldn't be - too shitty.]
You saw them? The machines? How many did they have?
[That definitely puts it mildly. He allows Bellamy to have his small freakout, petting Bellona's ears and staring straight ahead instead of directly at Bellamy. The question draws him back though and he shivers a little as he thinks about it.]
Hundreds? Maybe thousands. They were working on them really fast like they've been doing this for months. [Probably because they have been.] Rings upon rings of 'em just waiting to be brought to life and storm out of the mountain. Loki and I were trying to figure out if we could find a way to stop them but…the magic they're using is ancient. I have no idea what it really is and neither does Loki. We're breaking the news to everyone tomorrow morning.
Is there anything else about the vision that you didn't mention before? Maybe that'll help. [Maybe. But if Bellamy's watching close enough it's obvious that Hiro's already accepting that there might not be anything that can be done. And he hates it.]
[The more Hiro explains, the more it sounds like a "fuck" situation rather than a "shit." Bellamy's face grows grim, and he doesn't say anything immediately in response.]
[And he suddenly feels guilty, like maybe he and Clarke should have gone public with this much, much sooner - it just hadn't felt as pressing as most else at the time. Like Finn's death, like getting into the mountain.]
We covered the hulking mechanical monsters part. [A beat.] Did I mention they had shards for eyes? Did you see anything that might be related to that?
They spread fire too. I'm guessing that's gonna be a problem.
Yeah. Yeah, I actually saw their eyes. Tons of shards, red and green colored irises and pupils and blood smeared everywhere. The shards were basically drinking in the blood to power themselves. They were breathing smoke and steam when Loki and I saw them.
[There's not much that could have happened if Bellamy and Clarke had come forward sooner. There wasn't enough proof and now...] They know how to target shardbearers. We're trying to figure out how to get out of the way. [His free hand pulls on his bangs.] Loki and I are making an announcement in the morning to see what ideas everybody else has.
Fuck. [There it is! He runs a hand through his hair, trying to think about how they might've even gotten the shards and trying not to be overwhelmed by how terrible and unstoppable it sounds.]
Good idea. Once you get through with that, we should probably focus on what we can handle - the safety of shardbearers, putting out fires. Blindly attacking the machines'll just end up with more dead shardbearers till we know what works best against them, but trying to save the destruction behind them seems like a start, especially if the vision is anything to go by.
That's putting it lightly. [He runs his free hand through his hair, shifting and trying not to squish the kitten in his arms.]
I've been trying to think of everything I can but the problem with them is they can find us. There's no hiding from them so it makes safety even harder. How are we supposed to fight or keep people safe if there's no other out?
[His jaw sets hard, trying not to look too cynical about it all, if only for Hiro's sake. Not that he thinks Hiro is blind to how dead-end it all sounds right now either, but Bellamy doesn't want to give up for himself either.]
We play defense. We help people who can't help themselves. There isn't a solution right now, but I refuse to believe that means we can't find one. The more people we have brainstorming this, the better. It could set off a chain reaction of strategy.
You did good, Hiro, figuring out it's coming in the first place. We have a warning now.
That's what I want to do by announcing it with Loki, tomorrow. He was gonna do it himself, but I told him I wanted to be there. If we can get people to start thinking about these things maybe we can outsmart them. [It's still troublesome, even if there's the tiniest of grins.]
And anyway, it's not like I'm doing a ton of sleeping. I can use the time to figure stuff out. Be productive or whatever. I like the idea of a chain reaction, but we need a catalyst to set it off, first.
It's a good idea, and it's good you're involved. You're smart, especially with this kinda tech. [He says it casually, because even if it could be read as complimentary, to Bellamy it's just matter of fact.]
[He does frown over the admittance of no sleep, but it's not like Bellamy's in a place to judge. He hasn't gotten a full night's sleep in weeks.]
Sometimes a catalyst can just fall into your lap. [Look at him, trying to be optimistic. He doesn't quite realize it, but it's probably because Hiro needs some.]
It's tech and magic. [But he appreciates it, judging by the small smile. Thank you for believing in him, Bellamy.] We'll figure something out. We have to.
[That optimism is what he needs, and at the question he pauses again to think.] ...not really. I need to tell you something. Well, about something that happened back in July when I went to Quendi. I didn't exactly tell you the whole story because I thought I could fix things by now but doesn't look like it.
[Bellamy half grins back. It feels a little weird to stretch the muscles.]
[Then he frowns, but the admission isn't exactly a surprise. The last few weeks have been hell on sleep for a lot of people, Hiro included. He's even gone off with the kid in the middle of the night a few times.]
[But Quendi means the Shuck was likely involved, and Bellamy knows he's not going to like the answer to his next question, his tone already concerned.]
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[Especially after the hint of a nightmare. He meets Hiro's gaze firmly, but he doesn't look put our or annoyed - still just concerned, before he offers a nod.]
Wanna go outside? The air might be good for you. [It's almost standard by now, the way they just sort of meet up in the middle of the night. For himself, Bellamy has found it easier to get out of the house sometimes, whether they decide to just sit on the porch or climb up on the roof, just having the sky above him gives him a sense of calm when the walls feel too tight.]
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Outside, at least, might be a little less intimidating, too.]
...roof? [Even the porch is a bit too stifling today. Bellamy may have noticed a pattern in Hiro that when his night terrors are on the more severe side, he opts for open space.] I can meet you up there.
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Gimme two minutes. [That's a yes, on the roof. He shuts the door behind him and heads for the kitchen first, grabbing a canteen full of water and scooping up Bellona in the other hand. The kitten protests only briefly, but it's hardly the first time he's taken the animal up there with him, and he figures Hiro would probably appreciate more cat-time. He has seen the cuddles.]
[He could teleport, but even with his hands full, he'd rather climb up and exert himself, make it easier to fall asleep later. So he shoves kitten and canteen into one arm and makes his way up onto the roof, relishing in how much better the fresh air feels already.]
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By the time Bellamy appears over the edge of the roof he crawls forward, first taking the canteen and then trying to take Bellona from his hands so Bellamy can haul himself up the rest of the way. He just doesn't bother giving the kitten back, cradling her to his chest while leaning back and propping himself up with an elbow. Bellamy was right. The cat-time is appreciated. There's quiet for a moment as they get situated before Hiro turns his head to ask Bellamy a question.]
Did you go out tonight, or did you stay home? [He's known Bellamy to wander out at night a few times, but he generally doesn't ask where he goes.]
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[Bellamy settles down on the roof with a small sigh, taking back the canteen so he can take a sip before he replies.] Yeah. Just - around town though.
[He doesn't offer much more than that, but he's spent a lot of time at the La Llorona outpost lately too that he doesn't mind giving Hiro something more about where he's been. He knows Hiro has been worrying about it lately with everyone.]
For the record - next time you knock, if I'm not here, just call me.
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Yeah...I was gonna do that if you didn't answer. [Maybe. If he didn't psyche himself out first. He doesn't say anything for a minute, stomach tied in knots as he stares up at the sky and continues, now playing with the cat's paws.]
...let me ask you something. What do you do when your dreams start bleeding into reality and you don't know how to separate them very well?
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[But it's telling that he asks, and Bellamy knows right away that Hiro's struggling too, more than he'd realized before.] Try and find something that I know is reality. Focus myself on the things I know are real. [A beat.] Even if it means busting up my hands sometimes.
[At least he stopped feeling bad for the trees he's been taking his aggression out on. But fighting has come easy to him for so long that it just feels natural to use it to his own benefit even when he doesn't have a sentient opponent.]
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Focusing on Bellamy being alive and his head not spontaneously combusting due to his shard erroring out. Focusing on the still-warm night air. Focusing on the soft fur under Bellona's chin. It's not a bad strategy.]
But what if even then you can't fight it? [He doesn't want to sound defeated. It's the last thing he wants with Bellamy, but he knows it's harder to keep the tone out of his voice.] What if you know for a fact that the dreams are going to become a reality really, really soon? That's where I'm stuck.
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[So, he doesn't answer, not right away. Instead he ducks his head, putting himself on a closer level to the kid, and his face is full of both understanding and concern.]
What dreams, Hiro? What's going on? [The question could be taken to mean just right now, in this moment, but Bellamy means it to expand into - everything. The entirety of why he's had a chronic case of insomnia through this moment.]
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The important thing should be first.]
...remember how I went with Loki right after you and I got back from Parrais? Loki and I did a little breaking and entering right after that, right into Troichean Beinn. And we were hoping that we'd find some answers about the shards but we found something way worse instead. [He shakes his head.] Bellamy? It's happening. The second vision...it's coming true.
[He knows Bellamy will understand what he means. The second vision, the one of fire and mechanical beasts and everything Bellamy had told him about.] I don't know how long we have, a few weeks maybe? Maybe another month or two, but those things are going to be leaving the mountain soon and coming after us.
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[But when he drops the fact that the vision is real, Bellamy's expression drops too. On some level, he isn't surprised. The Godswar dreams all came true too, hadn't they? It makes sense that the machines would, especially after he'd gotten it for a second time.]
Shit. [To put it mildly. He runs a hand through his hair and wishes he had more of Waver's whiskey.] I kinda suspected it'd be coming, even if I hoped - [Hope is weird. Right now it feels a little useless. He knows he's a realist, and that tends towards cynicism, but sometimes he liked to imagine things wouldn't be - too shitty.]
You saw them? The machines? How many did they have?
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Hundreds? Maybe thousands. They were working on them really fast like they've been doing this for months. [Probably because they have been.] Rings upon rings of 'em just waiting to be brought to life and storm out of the mountain. Loki and I were trying to figure out if we could find a way to stop them but…the magic they're using is ancient. I have no idea what it really is and neither does Loki. We're breaking the news to everyone tomorrow morning.
Is there anything else about the vision that you didn't mention before? Maybe that'll help. [Maybe. But if Bellamy's watching close enough it's obvious that Hiro's already accepting that there might not be anything that can be done. And he hates it.]
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[And he suddenly feels guilty, like maybe he and Clarke should have gone public with this much, much sooner - it just hadn't felt as pressing as most else at the time. Like Finn's death, like getting into the mountain.]
We covered the hulking mechanical monsters part. [A beat.] Did I mention they had shards for eyes? Did you see anything that might be related to that?
They spread fire too. I'm guessing that's gonna be a problem.
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[There's not much that could have happened if Bellamy and Clarke had come forward sooner. There wasn't enough proof and now...] They know how to target shardbearers. We're trying to figure out how to get out of the way. [His free hand pulls on his bangs.] Loki and I are making an announcement in the morning to see what ideas everybody else has.
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Good idea. Once you get through with that, we should probably focus on what we can handle - the safety of shardbearers, putting out fires. Blindly attacking the machines'll just end up with more dead shardbearers till we know what works best against them, but trying to save the destruction behind them seems like a start, especially if the vision is anything to go by.
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I've been trying to think of everything I can but the problem with them is they can find us. There's no hiding from them so it makes safety even harder. How are we supposed to fight or keep people safe if there's no other out?
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We play defense. We help people who can't help themselves. There isn't a solution right now, but I refuse to believe that means we can't find one. The more people we have brainstorming this, the better. It could set off a chain reaction of strategy.
You did good, Hiro, figuring out it's coming in the first place. We have a warning now.
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And anyway, it's not like I'm doing a ton of sleeping. I can use the time to figure stuff out. Be productive or whatever. I like the idea of a chain reaction, but we need a catalyst to set it off, first.
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[He does frown over the admittance of no sleep, but it's not like Bellamy's in a place to judge. He hasn't gotten a full night's sleep in weeks.]
Sometimes a catalyst can just fall into your lap. [Look at him, trying to be optimistic. He doesn't quite realize it, but it's probably because Hiro needs some.]
That the only thing keeping you up?
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[That optimism is what he needs, and at the question he pauses again to think.] ...not really. I need to tell you something. Well, about something that happened back in July when I went to Quendi. I didn't exactly tell you the whole story because I thought I could fix things by now but doesn't look like it.
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[Then he frowns, but the admission isn't exactly a surprise. The last few weeks have been hell on sleep for a lot of people, Hiro included. He's even gone off with the kid in the middle of the night a few times.]
[But Quendi means the Shuck was likely involved, and Bellamy knows he's not going to like the answer to his next question, his tone already concerned.]
What happened, Hiro? What's going on?