( as soon as he admits to having seen home, her grip on his hand tightens significantly, curling her fingers into his. the motion of it claws its way up her throat, because it's only been a few hours. hours of replaying the memories of home, of a headache of memories from the Drabwurld rushing back, then the vision of the spire falling.
the comfort in having Bellamy be awake is immediate, and it's almost impossible for the anxiety and upset of home to eclipse that. Clarke might not know how to grapple with her new memories, but she knows she would be far less capable of doing it without Bellamy here.
there's a tightness to her voice when she finally speaks up, and she intends to tell him that she dreamed of him, too. that it wasn't just him, but- )
I didn't know if you were going to wake up. ( she swallows back the lump in her throat, gripping his hand a little tighter. it all comes out in a rush after that, like if she doesn't get everything out now, her throat might close around her words. ) I dreamed of home and woke up, and I wasn't sure if you'd stay asleep like other people have, and I didn't- I didn't know what to do. ( I was scared. )
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the comfort in having Bellamy be awake is immediate, and it's almost impossible for the anxiety and upset of home to eclipse that. Clarke might not know how to grapple with her new memories, but she knows she would be far less capable of doing it without Bellamy here.
there's a tightness to her voice when she finally speaks up, and she intends to tell him that she dreamed of him, too. that it wasn't just him, but- )
I didn't know if you were going to wake up. ( she swallows back the lump in her throat, gripping his hand a little tighter. it all comes out in a rush after that, like if she doesn't get everything out now, her throat might close around her words. ) I dreamed of home and woke up, and I wasn't sure if you'd stay asleep like other people have, and I didn't- I didn't know what to do. ( I was scared. )