( the thing is, Bellamy can be as frustrated as he wants with her, but the reality is that she knows he would have done the same thing if their positions had been reversed. she doesn't say as much, she doesn't need to, it's just another part of this that they hold the same stance on. save the other before you save yourself.
she makes an amused noise at his admission of always being a jerk, fully prepared to argue with him on the fact. because he isn't always a jerk, he isn't. it might be his fastest defense mechanism, but-
her train of thought stops rather abruptly, because no. no, of course she wouldn't think that. twisting her fingers into his shirt, she holds on as tight as she can muster up the strength for. she's almost thankful for the exhaustion this has brought her, it means she can't find the energy to cry; besides, she's tired of crying over the last few weeks. )
I thought I was going to lose you.
( the exhaustion doesn't stop her breath from catching in her throat, because no, she wouldn't think that he'd want anything to happen to her. the difference is that this isn't the first time she's thought she could lose him. the war, closing the dropship, the risk of the battles here, the nightmares following their quest-
Clarke's worried that, at the end of things, she will be the death of him. )
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she makes an amused noise at his admission of always being a jerk, fully prepared to argue with him on the fact. because he isn't always a jerk, he isn't. it might be his fastest defense mechanism, but-
her train of thought stops rather abruptly, because no. no, of course she wouldn't think that. twisting her fingers into his shirt, she holds on as tight as she can muster up the strength for. she's almost thankful for the exhaustion this has brought her, it means she can't find the energy to cry; besides, she's tired of crying over the last few weeks. )
I thought I was going to lose you.
( the exhaustion doesn't stop her breath from catching in her throat, because no, she wouldn't think that he'd want anything to happen to her. the difference is that this isn't the first time she's thought she could lose him. the war, closing the dropship, the risk of the battles here, the nightmares following their quest-
Clarke's worried that, at the end of things, she will be the death of him. )