It caused an explosion. ( her voice trembles after that, because she hasn't admitted it to anyone, not yet; Hiro was there, she didn't have to tell him, and Katherine knew. ) I died. ( her voice grows tighter, and Clarke can feel the tears pricking at her eyes; her emotions are in overdrive. ) I woke up to Hiro holding my shard and Jason's. Katherine's blood- It was still in my system so it brought me back.

( she forces the calm back into her voice, taking a deep breath, another one, another one. Clarke won't go into the details, she won't tell him about the transitional state, about how she had to drink blood or die for real; she can spare him that. )

I'm not human anymore, Bell. ( she knows he's going to blame himself, she knows he is, because Bellamy is like her and takes responsibility for everyone. ) I'm sorry.