[Bellamy's face falls, and he just thinks about Octavia; about her cries to leave their apartment, about her cries when she didn't know any better, about the quiet way Hiro speaks and the way it reminds Bellamy that sometimes there's so little he can do for the people he cares about. He can't bring Tadashi back, and he doesn't know the precise way to get Hiro to stop beating himself over it. It's one of his own traits.]
Maybe you just don't see them handling it. [A beat.] Everyone - we all deal with these things differently. I don't have a single answer for you. I think we all try to ignore them, but in the end, it's still impossible to escape.
[He watches Hiro steadily, trying to figure out where to go, what to say from here. The hardest part is how open it makes him. But reassuring Hiro seems to outweigh his discomfort.] I've made too many mistakes. I can't - take them back. I just try to do better. You tried to stop your brother, Hiro, but it isn't your fault that you couldn't.
If you don't know what to do, how to deal with it - [He breathes in a little.] What would Tadashi do? I think about my mother, what she'd expect or want for me. I think about what I want of me.
It isn't the same. [Bellamy's demons are corpses he put in the ground; Hiro's are wrapped up in a brother he couldn't save.] And maybe no one is actually dealing with it, but we're trying anyway. I've had nightmares the whole time I've been here. It's - people. It's my sister, it's Clarke, I think about them. I talk to them.
We have to keep living. Nobody is a machine, no matter how hard we might want to be sometimes. You can't sleep. So stop pretending otherwise, stop hiding it, and go from there.
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Maybe you just don't see them handling it. [A beat.] Everyone - we all deal with these things differently. I don't have a single answer for you. I think we all try to ignore them, but in the end, it's still impossible to escape.
[He watches Hiro steadily, trying to figure out where to go, what to say from here. The hardest part is how open it makes him. But reassuring Hiro seems to outweigh his discomfort.] I've made too many mistakes. I can't - take them back. I just try to do better. You tried to stop your brother, Hiro, but it isn't your fault that you couldn't.
If you don't know what to do, how to deal with it - [He breathes in a little.] What would Tadashi do? I think about my mother, what she'd expect or want for me. I think about what I want of me.
It isn't the same. [Bellamy's demons are corpses he put in the ground; Hiro's are wrapped up in a brother he couldn't save.] And maybe no one is actually dealing with it, but we're trying anyway. I've had nightmares the whole time I've been here. It's - people. It's my sister, it's Clarke, I think about them. I talk to them.
We have to keep living. Nobody is a machine, no matter how hard we might want to be sometimes. You can't sleep. So stop pretending otherwise, stop hiding it, and go from there.