[His voice goes quiet.] I know what happened, even if I didn't see it firsthand. [Stories of what happens when someone is floated were circulated as long as Bellamy could remember.]

[But. But then Hiro keeps talking. It isn't hard to figure out where the story goes, to pick up on the fact that the last time Hiro saw his brother, Tadashi was walking into a ticking time bomb. Bellamy has seen plenty of deaths in his life, has caused some of those deaths (shoving bullets into necks, strangling necks, the noose around his own neck). But nothing to that extent. He can't possibly fucking imagine watching Octavia die. He's done a lot of stupid shit to prevent that.]

[He can also imagine himself in Tadashi's shoes, on some level. He's done a lot of stupid shit to keep people alive too, and for a moment, he thinks about trading himself for Jasper.]

It's not your fault. [A beat.] Don't beat yourself up over not being able to save him, okay?

[He hesitates, because - he knows what he wants to say, though it's not like he ever talks about this sort of thing much. But he thinks it might help, for Hiro to hear it, for him to know he's not alone, even if it's not entirely the same.] I dream about death all the time. Things back home, even if I am in the Drabwurld - it's still with me here. Don't push passed it to the point where it makes you numb, or makes living with it worse.

I can't tell you it'll go away. It might not ever. But it doesn't mean suck up and deal is the only option all the time.